This is a momentary pleasant memory in the mist of my rage. Joyful joyful! Choir! Moe-town! Second Soprano's!! The stupid dances!! Oh.
I looked at the loan websites in-depth today. I found one that I liked, the one with the lowest interest rate. I filled out all the paperwork on my side and when my mom came home from work I asked her to fill out her half.
She told me NO
Given, from the beginning of all this "You can't go to Hollins" bullshit, my parents told me that they would not cosign my loan. I kind of thought that it was maybe a scare tactic, like an empty threat. and maybe if I still tried to go through with it, they'd cave and sign.
Well she didn't.
And yes, I'm very upset. She warned me. But dammit.
No one gets it.
Nothing Compares To You- Sinead O'Connor
(Oh, Noren.)
They are fucking trapping me here. I DO NOT WANT TO BE HERE. I don't want to have to stay here for two years then transfer. I just want to go to college, is that so bad? Shouldn't this be something that I decide? Is it fucking worth it after this?
Should I just give up? Marry Matt and become a housewife, pop out a few kids and die uneducated.
I just want to go to college. I want to go to the college that I worked my ass off to get into. What else can I do at this point? Do I have any options left?
Its very hard right now, not to feel bitter and spiteful towards my parents. This is all their fault, and they won't even try to work with me. Its one option in their eyes.
I am so angry.