My Dangerous Minds Soundtrack came in..eeeeeeee!! I am taken back to my childhood in this music. I'm in the basement with Donna, her gang, 2nd hand pot smoke stinking up my hair and clothes. You wouldn't think that would be a good environment for a little girl, but I really liked it. It was very interesting. I loved watching them, riding along with them to parties and...I liked the music.
Donna actually made me a tape of this awesome ass music. If I still had it I'd listen to it everyday. Her brother David recorded over it Manowar (man-o-war? I don't remember.) But I think I have most of the music off the tape, or at least what I can remember.
Anyway, Donna snuck me in to see this movie, Dangerous Minds with her then boyfriend.
Its still one of my favorite movies.
I'm a bit cranky today I think. I babysat for like...6 hours, Matt was there for most of it. I hadn't seen him in a very long time. He shaved for me!! No scruffy boys allowed. Bailee and CJ were adorable as always, I can't believe she's turning 5 in august.
I'm baby-sitting again tomorrow, probably for most of the day. Then I have to go to The Icing and close. BLAH. I hate closing. Mainly because...I clean and I don't like cleaning. Hopefully we'll be slow and the store won't be wrecked.
And tomorrow is my Grandpa George's birthday! Happy Birthday Grandpa! My Dad will probably be very depressed tomorrow for that very reason. My mom said he would be in his 70's if he were still alive. Its all very sad to think about.
I was asked a very interesting question yesterday. He asked me, "Don't you know you're beautiful?"
Well. I guess not.
I mean, sure. I get told I'm pretty or beautiful every once and awhile, and the rest of the time I feel ugly and fat. Its been a few years since I was told I was ugly to my face. I can only assume now what people are saying about me when I'm not there.
Beauty is in the eye of the beholder though. I could be the most beautiful girl in the world or the ugliest and not everyone would share the same opinion. Those are nice thoughts but I'm not sure I've ever heard a pretty girl get called ugly.
I'm downloading Dani California. I know. I'm such a sinner.
By the way, I think that you two are FUCKERS. I hope you read this, and I hope you know I'm talking about you.
I know that I'm no angel, but damn. You think that after all the shit we've been through, all the fights and the tears and everything you'd turn out to be a bit more decent.
I am filled with thoughts. Questions I'd like to ask you. I want to be inside your head. I asked you today if you could read my thoughts by my eyes, and guess what.
You couldn't. It was the saddest thing.
I'm turning 18 very soon.
I'm a little bitter today. I feel as though I shouldn't have left my bed. I should have listened to music all day. I shouldn't have spoken to anyone either.
I'm having a hard time reading The Devil in the White City, there's a lot of stuff about architecture. And I'm like....what?
I want to burn you CDs. I want to share my music with you and spend hours talking about it. I think you would like five iron frenzy until you found out they were christians.
Crazy wiccan. My God this is such a sin.
I want the weekend to be over. The summer is going by too fast. I haven't even decided what I'm doing yet.