Oh shit.
Finally.
I was beginning to doubt whether or not it would actually happen. And it did today.
I'm not sure if its really hit me yet. No...I'm still in a state of shock, bliss..euphoria.
I can't believe it.
I want to do it more, and at the same time, never again. This isn't the first time, just my first time in awhile. And...this is something that could become potentially harmful.
But these thoughts are too big to register right now. So instead I'll lean back and close my eyes and remember the feeling, the sensation.
My body is still tingling.
Amanda- Waylon Jennings
Maybe I don't want emails anymore. I think...I'm tired of everyone telling me what to do. Maybe try asking me what I want and go from there.
Hollins sent me a book! I was like what the hell....a book?? Its called Prodigal Summer. I'm supposed to read it before orientation and discuss it with the people I meet on that fateful day.
Ordinary Day- Vanessa Carlton
I'm not sure how I feel about any of this yet. Too soon to tell. Excited for Wednesday, to say the least (Big Duh, right?).
Sometimes I feel like I'm writing to you, just for you. This is everything I haven't said to you yet. Or maybe I've said it, but I need to say it over and over again.
Apparently, I smell good.
I have to work tomorrow, I can sense already how slow it will be. Wednesday I'm on-call (I hate being on-call, what am I, a fucking doctor?).
I'm turning 18 soon.
I think...I'm in the palm of your hand. Do with me what you wish. Right now...at this moment, I am all yours.
On My Own- The Used
I blushed today. I think its been awhile since I've done that.
My, my. Would you look at what you're doing to me?