I've got these big ass button earrings that look like gages. I'm actually managing to convince some people that they're real. I really upset a woman I used to babysit for, she came up to me and grabbed my face and was all "MANDY!! WHAT DID YOU DO???" I was a little confused. Gaging my ears has lost its appeal since I gaged Lauren from HollinSummer's ears. That was brutal.
And. I guess I'm having a graduation party. Against my will of course. I'm anxious about the prospect of my friends meeting my redneck family, my teachers and my family and the place where we're having it. Its this little tiny hole in the wall restaurant IN my neighborhood, (whitetrash!!) Its. Not going to be good.
I'm getting a Marilyn Monroe poster for a gift though. I'm excited about that. And hopefully the million people that are invited will GIVE ME MONEY. I need money to pay for this fkcuing (I did that on purpose, I can't swear about Hollins) college. Thats the only reason I agreed to it. The prospect of money.
I haven't been purging regualrly. I do occasionally, the last time being today after lunch. I've been cutting again though. I've been very stressed out, very anxious. I come home after school and I sleep for 5 hours and then up for half the night.
I am not doing well.
I was very upset by Mandisa getting kicked off of American Idol last night. I think she's beautiful and more importantly she has a fabulous singing voice. And her courage!! Giving a testimony of her faith, at least 3 or 4 times, on national TV. I hope some gospel producers watch the show because she needs to be signed, and I will buy all of her albums. She's amazing. America is shallow and unaccepting of Christians.