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«2005-12-19»

playing:When I'm Gone- Eminem
feeling:Cold

I think I really like Eminem. That song is very good. Its very...heartfelt. I was surprised.

So for days I was a zombie under the influence of my new drug, Seroquel. Now I have motor functions, but I'm still rather numb, I don't feel a difference. I suppose I have to give it time for it to reach a theraputic level, but presently...nothing. I'm functioning on auto pilot.

Christmas.

I'm walking around on eggshells, (broken glass maybe) any holiday my dad gets very...inclined to get angry. I've already encountered 6 blow ups in these 19 days...I'm hoping Christmas will be alright.

I'm considering writing to Noren, but I think that could be a very bad idea. I don't know. I've been thinking about her a lot lately. She expressed quite plainly that she never wants to speak to me again, so maybe..I shouldn't.

I made out with Matt today at Barnes and Noble. Yay PDA. Hopefully I'll see him on Christmas Eve for a little while.

I don't know. Auto Pilot.

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